It all starts with insanity!

A sane can not work towards being sane, only an insane can become sane.

You think you are sane,

But then, you go through some insanity,

Only to realize your sanity,

And, then you become sane.

You begin to think you’re finally sane,

When you make another blunder.

You feel confused about your personality,

You go through more insanity,

You begin to feel like you can never change,

And at the end of the whole process,

You become sane again.

You again begin to feel you are sane,

When again something happens,

And most often it is the same insane struggle you had been going through from the beginning,

You again lose yourself,

You again start to feel ‘it will never be better and I’ll keep going in circles’,

You lose a little more than before,

You become more insane than ever, and then,

Somehow, you become sane again.

This goes on and on and on and on,

You keep moving in circles,

You begin to call yourself insane,

Because you witnessed it,

You DID repeat the same mistakes over and over,

You DID lose yourself over and over,

You DID become insane over and over, and hence,

You ACCEPT your insanity,

And you make your peace with it,

And surprisingly,

You become more peaceful than ever,

As a result, you become sane again.

And then you realize,

You were never going in circles,

You were in a spiral,

That was moving upwards,

Which is why, you got to witness your insanity over and over,

Because, you were standing right on top of it,

You could see it very clearly,

But what you did not know was that it was not a circle but a spiral,

And when you realize this,

You become sane again.

And then comes a point when you start to perceive it as a spiral,

You stop blaming yourself,

You stop calling yourself insane,

And try to calmly pass through your moments of insanity whenever they occur,

And you DO get out of it, again,

And as the process functions,

You become sane again.

 

After that it is only a refining,

You keep becoming better,

You keep letting go of the moments of insanity,

And you make your brain numb when you’re into it,

You let the life work on you,

You flow with it,

And with flowing comes more sanity, and hence,

You become sane again.

This becomes your ritual,

You start reveling in it,

You feel it shall pass,

Your insanity will become sanity again, and indeed,

You become sane again.

Then,

Sane again…

Sane again…

Sane again…

Until,

You become pure like God, and after that,

There are no more circles or spirals,

No more sanity or insanity,

You stand at the vertex of the spiral you were into,

You become one with God,

You become God,

But,

A sane can not become God,

Because…

A sane stays still,

A sane never becomes insane,

A sane never enters the spiral,

A sane never reaches the vertex,

And hence,

A sane never becomes God,

Because,

It all starts with insanity.

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