Hi, I am an actor.

Not by profession though.

It’s a lifestyle.

How you ask?

Well, I enact.

I love those who I don’t.

I say it’s okay when it’s not.

I smile at them when all I wish to do is scream.

I’m anything but what I seem.

Why do I do it?

Call it ‘people-pleasing’.

Or call it ‘peace-lover’.

But, do I feel the peace?

Not really.

Should I still do it?

Apparently, No!

Why don’t I just stop?

I do, it doesn’t.

What doesn’t?

It.

What it?

The bug.

Which bug?

I don’t know its name.

What does it do?

It enters my psyche.

And…

And I start to please.

How you ask?

Well, if I knew, I’d have killed the bug.

I can’t.

It enters my mind, and I’m no more ‘Me’.

I become ‘the bug‘.

Bug becomes ‘Me’.

That’s what actors do.

Never what they are.

I should stop though.

But how, I do not know.

I tried once or twice.

Saw disappointments in their eyes.

Why should I bother?

Yeah, right?

Why SHOULD I bother?

I should not right?

I should not.

Yes, I SHOULD NOT.

Then what about the relationship?

It turns into a fiasco.

It’s probably destined to be.

It’s a ship of ‘Relation’.

It’s not a boat for one to ride.

It’s a ship.

That too of a ‘Relation’.

Relation involves minimum two.

It needs teamwork.

Even a relationship with oneself.

It needs two.

How you ask?

Aware one and Unaware one.

Aware one helps the unaware one.

And vice-versa.

Immortals stay within the rules.

Why do mortals have to be pleased?

Why mortals get disappointed?

Why mortals have extra-high expectations?

Not my problem right?

Some ships are meant to reach destiny.

Some are not.

Some get through the storms.

Some sink.

If one needs to please.

Release.

And breathe.

The fresh.

A new ship.

A ship with the team.

Supporting team at that.

One that’s meant to reach a destiny.

Together.

Peacefully.

Lovingly.

Happily.

Feels so fulfilling right?

It is.

Fulfillment is the sign.

Fulfillment is the way.

Fulfillment is God.

God doesn’t please.

God is still an actor though.

A true actor.

A loving actor.

You know why?

Because it doesn’t lie.

All its stories are true.

All its roles are true.

You are true.

I am true.

Our loved ones are true.

Each of us are true.

A story that forms and ends some day.

But a true story.

God’s acting is astonishing.

It speaks truth.

Even when it lies.

Miraculous it is.

Why it?

Your God, you choose.

Call it It.

Call it He.

Call it She.

Call it as you like.

It is fulfillment.

And so much more.

Yes, fulfillment it is.

Then why do I go the other way?

I must control the bug.

Control and kill it.

How you ask?

I will follow my fulfillment.

I will follow the need for a ship to reach its destiny.

I will make sure the team follows too.

But what if they don’t?

I will wear my life jacket and let the ship sink.

Then I will wait.

Wait for some other ship.

A ship with the teamwork.

A ship that’s meant to reach its destiny.

‘Fulfillment‘.

‘A new ship‘.

‘The destiny‘.

I will remember these terms.

I will torture the bug with these terms when I see it again.

I will torture it so hard.

I will make sure I make it fearful.

Fearful of me.

Yes, Me!

Not a people pleaser.

An actor, though.

A better actor instead.

An actor like God.

Lies but true.

True to itself.

True to the fulfillment.

True to the destiny.

A wonderful destiny.

A happy one.

A joyful one.

And therefore my friends, I am an actor.

A better one.

A Godly one.

A true one.

A happy one.

But.

I was.

I am.

I will remain.

An actor.

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